Blog

The Death of the Erotica Webzine?

I learned just a few days ago that the erotica webzine Oysters & Chocolate has closed down.  I expect everyone else knew this a while ago, but fortunately Iā€™m used to being at the blunt edge of news and fashion trends.  In any case, I was very sad to hear that yet another fine erotica literary magazine has faded into history.

When I first started writing erotica, I dutifully sent my stories out by quaint snail-mail to print magazines like Libido and Yellow Silk.  Both of them ceased publication before my work was saleable enough to receive back more than a Xeroxed fortune-cookie-sized rejection.  However, soon enough I did have more luck with the then-revolutionary online magazines like Clean Sheets, Scarlet Letters, Playboyā€™s CyberClub, Fishnet, Ruthieā€™s Club, dearly departed Oysters & Chocolate, and finally The Erotic Woman and the ERWA galleries (the only two left standing from my publication list).  There are numerous other fine webzines that I wonā€™t mention for space.  Most of these focused on an edgy, complex, not-always-feel-goodā€”also known as ā€œliteraryā€–type of erotica. 

More important than a list of the fallen brave is the question of what is filling the void left by these magazines.  I donā€™t have a confident answer, but Iā€™ll hazard a guess that itā€™s not uncommon for a new erotica writer to dash off a story, throw it up on Amazon for ninety-nine cents, then dive into the self-promotion madness before she even really knows who she is as a writer–all the while receiving plenty of encouragement for business savvy.  Of course, there are some publishers who still put out fine anthologies and welcome newcomers, but for me the webzine world was the perfect place to ease into publication and meet editors, not to mention share my work widely without imposing too much on my friendsā€™ pocketbooks.

I have a temperament that has never loved rules or authority figures, so part of me is thrilled with the new ā€œWild Westā€ atmosphere of self-publishing.  I firmly believe that anyone who takes the time to write about sex, even in a formulaic way, is going to be paying more attention to an important aspect of our humanity that is still reviled, even as it is harnessed to manipulate us by providing the addictive hit of ā€œidealā€ sex. (See Remittance Girlā€™s recent Apollonian & Dionysian Dialectic: Inner Conflicts and Revolutionary Acts for a discussion of this and other thought-provoking arguments about what makes for a compelling erotic story).

Yet I think we do lose something important with the demise of an editorial vision on the web.  As scary as gatekeeping editors can seem from the writerā€™s point of view, I appreciate that they work hard to select good stories for their readers.  With the advent of self-publishing, itā€™s the reader who has to wade through the slush pileā€”and pay for the privilege.  During the golden age of the webzine, you could click on over with confidence youā€™d be getting a certain level of quality.  For writers, the magazines also provided an easy way to research and be inspired by a wider variety of stories selected by veteran editors.  I learned a lot from my reading.

I may be flashing my West-Coast-hippie-romantic undies here, but Iā€™m still dismayed by how often people invoke money as the reason they write erotica or retire from doing so.  Or rather how weā€™re all okay with that as the most important reason to do anything at all. 

ā€œI thought Iā€™d get as rich as E.L. James writing a dirty book, but it didnā€™t happen so I quit.ā€ 

ā€œSmart move, follow the money, honeyā€”maybe try Hollywood or country music?ā€

Which reminds me that erotica webzines paid little or nothing.  This probably lessened their appeal to new writers as well.  Yes, I know, we all need to make a living and pay the orthodontist, but presumably most of us have sex for pleasure and emotional connection without plotting a way to get paid for it.  Why should writing about it be any different?  And why shouldnā€™t we enthusiastically celebrate authors who write on even without thousands in royalties?  (One inspiring example of the spiritual approach to writing erotica is described in Garceā€™s Confessions of a Craft Freak: Sex and the Apprentice Writer.)  I’m not saying refuse payment or stop promoting, just, you know, appreciate there are other ways to be a success.  Otherwise, weā€™re buying into the system that puts profit above all.  Really.

Now I definitely don’t believe the golden past is unquestionably better than the alloyed present.  After all, in the old days ice cream only came in chocolate, vanilla and strawberry, and now we have Americone Dream.  But while Iā€™m reminiscing, Iā€™m old enough to remember way back to about 2005 when traditional print editors suddenly decided they wanted to cash in on the erotica revolution.  Many writers I know got juicy contracts for anthologies with big publishers, which meant not just money but respect.  I had great hopes this would be the break-through for sexually explicit writing that dares to go deeper than titillation followed by a chaser of sin well punished.  Finally, we were being taken seriously by the Big Boys.  Alas, the hoped-for deluge of profits did not come and they dropped us cold, proclaiming erotica dead.

We could probably have an interesting discussion about whether 50 Shades of Grey genuinely revived the erotica cause or not, but obviously millions are still intrigued by sexuality and what other people do and think about it.  Like any writer, I hope my work will be read and appreciated, although Iā€™d choose fewer readers who appreciate what I do over millions who are getting a faked sensibility in the name of sales.

I guess Iā€™ll just pull out the Americone Dream while I wait and see how this chapter in the publishing-and-money saga plays out.  I can always soothe myself with the undying truth that whatever form it takes, humanityā€™s curiosity about sex and its meaning in our lives is here to stay.

Donna George Storey is the author
of Amorous Woman (recently released as an ebook) and a new collection of short
stories, Mammoth
Presents the Best of Donna George Storey
. Learn more about her
work at www.DonnaGeorgeStorey.com
or http://www.facebook.com/DGSauthor

Confessions of a Craft Freak: Sex and the Apprentice Writer

Iā€™m a craft freak.

My relationship with books, words and even wooden pencils is not normal or even especially healthy.

My car, my bedside, my jacket pockets are littered with little notebooks and odd scraps of paper. Alongside the books are piles of notebooks of all sizes and purpose. Pencils and fountain pens have a fetishistic fascination for me which can be disturbing and geeky to behold.  I have more fountain pens and pencils than I will ever use but not as many as I want.

Being a craft freak is how I make up for not being the world’s greatest writer.  Maybe you can relate, I donā€™t know.  It’s just how I’ve adapted. It’s an adaptation that has changed me.  I started out hoping to be a great writer.  Over time I am becoming the path itself. I am an enthusiast for language and for words well written.  A well crafted sentence makes me swoon with pleasure.  A passage from Shakespeare or Nabokov makes me mumble to myself with demented happiness.

I’ve come to the conclusion over time that writing is unique among the art forms in that literary talent is a precious luxury if you have it, but you can get by without it if you have sufficient enthusiasm. If you have to choose between talent and working very hard on the right things, choose hard work.  Pay your dues at the keyboard and the talent might find you.  If you want to draw or paint, you need certain brain wiring. If you want to be a musician you need certain brain wiring. But you can develop an ear for the written word if you read a great deal and if you teach yourself to read well.  Quality fiction writing is a thing that can be learned if you have audacity, observation, fanaticism and an iron butt.

I’m an Apprentice Writer. Let me define that.

Many years ago publishers drew a line between “popular” fiction and “literary fiction”.  Popular fiction was the kind that people paid money for.  Literary fiction was that endangered species of everything else.  In my case I write literary erotica mostly. 

The fact is very few people, I think Stephen King said it was less than 5%, make their income exclusively from writing fiction.  These would probably be people who work in formula genres, such as television staff writers and most popular novelists.  Nobody ever earns a living from writing poetry or short stories no matter how good they are.  Writing literary short stories is for suckers; people who are content to write their hearts out for stuff very few people will ever read and for which youā€™ll usually get paid peanuts or nothing.  But that doesnā€™t mean weā€™re not the happiest suckers in the business.  Maybe you can relate, I donā€™t know.

Norman Mailer observed, and I agree, that you can’t learn much from only reading the immortals, guys like Shakespeare, Dostoyevsky, or Nabokov, names to conjure with. They’re over your head for the time being, but they can give you an idea of how high you can reach. You’ll learn more craft-wise by reading people on your own level and aspiring respectfully to reach past them.  A bad story written by someone else is as valuable to your journey as a good story.

All those guys, Dostoyevsky and Nabokov, most of the time they didn’t know what they were doing.  They wrote shitty first drafts.  The difference is, they knew how to work around this and they did it by writing their asses off and ferociously overhauling their work over and over. Ernest Hemingway rewrote each of his short stories up to thirty drafts apiece with a wooden pencil. Dostoyevsky rewrote his novel “The Idiot” five times completely from scratch, from the bottom every time, using notebooks and a dip pen while struggling with epilepsy and a gambling addiction.  Nobody invited him to any Iowa Writers Workshops either.

It’s great to be a genius, but hard work is better.  Walk down the aisles in a used book store where the romance novels are; I guarantee there will be at least two aisles stacked tall with white and red Harlequin paperbacks that ladies of letters have been churning out in their spare time like hamburgers, writing in the kitchen when the kids are asleep, or at the laundromat or at their office desks during lunch.  A person with heart can definitely do this. 

We write erotic stories here. Erotic stories are the most ancient and universal genre of story telling, second only to religious mythology, going back to the Neolithic fires of people who hadn’t learned to feel shame, telling stories to each other of  nature gods who fucked lustily and gave birth to the world. Though often despised and banned, itā€™s a proud heritage.

We who write this transgressive genre are the literary equivelent of punk rockers.  Literary erotica especially has a unique satisfaction. It searches for a kind of truth in furtive midnight sheets.  A good love story should give love a bad name. A good sex story should give sex a bad name when it comes from licking your tongue in the dark wet spots of your soul and tasting and reporting about the human heart, and when its done right it stands for the ages, like King David seeing Bathesheba for the first time bathing nude on a roof top or Joseph being thrown in prison for refusing to fuck Pharaohā€™s wife. People have been writing about sex for a very long time.

I’m a craft freak.  Maybe you can relate, I donā€™t know.

I donā€™t think that my opinions about things are all that interesting so in the next several months I’m going to share everything I’ve found out so far that I know for sure is true about the act of story telling, and then I donā€™t know what Iā€™ll do.  God I wish it were more.  Donā€™t ask me how to get a literary agent, I donā€™t have one and if youā€™re not making enough money to be worth stealing you probably donā€™t need one. Donā€™t ask me how to get published. I’m published and itā€™s not as big a deal as you might think. Donā€™t even ask me about blogging and self promotion because Iā€™m not especially good at that either.

What I know is a good story when I read one.  Also, I have a lot of faith.  I fiercely believe that I have some bombshell stories down inside and anybody reading this has those stories within also.  The problem I have, and maybe you have, is that these really good stories are buried under a big pile of bad stories.  You have to dig them out.  You have to dig down to where they are by shoveling shit with a keyboard faithfully and persistently until the day you hit gold. 

Thatā€™s what I have faith in.  I believe the gold is down there, every day I pay my dues at the keyboard.  This faith has gotten me this far and from this day I find myself in the company of writers here at this very blog whose stuff I was buying and devouring long before Iever imagined I’d get to share the same stage with them.

Wow!

Next month:  ā€œThe Elements of Short Story Structureā€

The Apollonian & Dionysian Dialectic: Inner Conflicts and Revolutionary Acts

A long, long time ago, in a land far, far away, there was a guy named Nietzsche who had a hell of a time getting people to spell his name correctly. He also had an unfortunate way voicing his opinions that makes him, to this day, rather annoying to read. However, all that aside, some of his ideas were so phenomenally clever (some of them were crap, too, but we’ll leave that for now) that they radically influenced almost all the European thinkers that came after him. And they do, to this day, as anyone who has read Camille Paglia (another thinker with an awkward mode of address) can attest to.

Nietzsche wanted to get past the whole, very Judeo-Christian good/bad divide. He wanted to explore what forces were working on man to account for the way they behaved. Living during a time when people had begun to fear their cultural spirit was flabby and weak, he could see that a great many people were just too civilized for their own boots. And being trained in the classics, he reflected back on his early education and came up with the concept of the Apollonian and Dionysian dialectic. He felt (probably because he didn’t know much about how appallingly Greeks treated women and slaves) that the Ancient Greeks had found a much better balance between their instinctual selves and their civilized yearnings.

What the hell has this got to do with erotica? Bear with me.

Apollonian forces are all the civilizing factors that allow us to get along with each other. They favour control over nature, discipline over instinct, rational thought over emotional drive. Dionysian forces are… you know, the opposite: chaos over order, instinct over culture, creative, libidinous, wild, violent, etc.

At the center of every good erotic story is a battle between the Dionysian and Apollonian forces within the characters. This is how great erotica manages to have conflict without writing a sub-plot about battling Nazi zombies.

Now, you might think that something like modern porn is wholly Dionysian – it’s all about giving in to base instincts and indulging in wild pleasures, right? But step back. Porn does have a hidden Apollonian side to it. Porn tells you HOW to fuck. It shows you what you should look like, act like, sound like. It offers a ‘fuck ideal’. Although you may not notice that with your hand around your dick, while the large-breasted blonde gets it up the ass and sucks dick at the same time, believe me, subconsciously, you’re being schooled in how to do it right.  This is why crazy-like-a-fox Slavoj Zizek can say that porn is ultimately a conservative art-form and get away with it.

Similarly, a lot of erotic romance might look like two crazy fools engaging in ton-o-kink, and falling into the chaos of unending love (Dionysian). But actually, if they’re pairing up and planning on negotiating a mortgage together by the end of the story, they’re ending up in a very Apollonian place. Most romances offer the reader a ‘love ideal’.  Society likes those neat family units.

What, I argue, makes good erotica far superior an art form to either porn or romance, is that it refuses to offer ‘ideals’. It recognizes that tension between the Apollonian and Dionysian forces, celebrates it, focuses on the storm of it, and leaves the reader with that battle unresolved. 

Why do I think that’s good?

I think it mirrors our real, lived experiences far better than either porn or romance.  In truth, we live with those competing forces all our lives.  Even poor, uptight T.S. Eliot was left pondering whether he had the rakish temerity to eat a peach and let the juice dribble down his chin. 

Writing characters who are so wholly committed to either the Apollonian or Dionysian sides of their personality diminishes your ability to take them through a good, meaty story. If your character is too ready to take the plunge, too accepting of all the chaos that indulging in the Dionysian entails, it’s going to be hard to effectively write any tension in the story. On the other hand, if your character is too hell bent on finding the right man with whom to settle down and start a family (or too hell bent on populating the perfect BDSM dungeon), you’ve got the same problem.

Revealing the inner tension of each character’s Apollonian and Dionysian side (and fighting your own Apollonian or Dionysian preferences to get them to a place of static commitment to either camp) will allow you to leave your reader with characters who will haunt them beyond the end of your story, because although the story may have ending, you allowed the universal battle live on.

Now, if you’re a savvy writer who wants to sell books, then right about now you are thinking… I don’t care what you say, Ms Philosopher Name-Dropper, people want ‘ideals’. ‘Ideals’ sell.

Yes, they do. They absolutely do. The public has been fed so many visions of an ‘ideal’ in the media, they’re completely addicted to it. When they don’t get it, they get pissed off, just like any junky who finds out his fix is actually almost all baby laxative.

And this is why I bring up Nietzsche and Zizek, and why I feel erotica is a fundamentally revolutionary, political act. Because I believe that feeding people ‘ideals’ is like handing them smack.  And you can accuse me of being a patronizing, arrogant elitist – that’s fine. But all those unrealistic, ideal-driven narratives accumulate, and ultimately leave people constantly yearning for a reality that cannot exist, or comparing their lives to fairy-tale fictional worlds and feeling like, if only they were cleverer, smarter, richer, better-looking, thinner… everything would be perfect. And ironically, this tends to make them go out and buy stuff that promises to make them all those things. Corporate profits go up and people’s sense of self-worth, purpose and ability to cope with the ups and downs of a real life go to the wall.

When D.H. Lawrence published Lady Chatterly’s Lover in 1928, he did something utterly revolutionary. He wrote explicit sex scenes in a literary world that had never tolerated them. He wrote about sexual love between people from radically different classes in a world where that was a serious social transgression. He wrote the ending it deserved. Not a happy one, but one where the characters were left transformed by their experiences.

There is no use pretending that, in a world saturated in porn, writing explicit sex is transgressive: it’s not. And not only has fucking the help become acceptable, it’s a goddamned porn meme. But writing stories that offer no ideals, and don’t force the battle between the Apollonian and the Dionysian to a neat conclusion… that IS transgressive.

So do it.

Seven M.Christians: Number 2 – Queerer Than You Can Imagine

The thought of that makes your blood run cold, doesn’t it? Ā Well, rest assured, there’s no reason to be scared … well, maybe notĀ that muchĀ of a reason to be scared…

The thing is I haven’t really talked a lot about myself for a while so I thought it would be a fun little experiment to post a series of essays about little ol’ me: where I came from, my professional journey, being an editor, being a publisher … and even my hopes and dreams for the future.

Hope you like!

Queerer Than You Can Imagine

Wanna hear a funny … well, if not funny then at least odd … story?Ā  In our previous installment you heard of my journey from amateur to professional writer.Ā  Pornographic (mostly) but a professional writer, nonetheless.

Since I published by first story in 1993 I’ve been ā€“ to put it mildly ā€“ writing up a storm.Ā  I’m not going to inflict my entire bio on you (that’s at the bottom of this piece as well as on my site at www.mchristian.com) but let’s just say that I’ve written quite a few stories ā€“ that have been collected into quite a few collections ā€“ as well as more than a few novels.

Onto the funny: quite a few of those stories, more than a few of the collections, and most of those novels ā€“ plus a serious number of anthologies where I’ve been an editor ā€“ feature gay or lesbian characters.Ā  In fact I’ve had stories in the celebrated Best Gay Erotica, Best of the Best Gay Erotica, Best Lesbian Erotica, Best Bisexual Erotica, Best Transgendered Erotica, and I was even a finalist for the gay literature award, the Lambda’s…

Anyway, I think you get the build-up, so here’s the punchline:

I’m straight.

Not even bisexual.Ā  Oh, sure, I’ve gotten more than a few offers (very flattering) but, as I like to say, Mr. Happy only responds to women.Ā  Now I also like to say I’m politically gay in that I vote a very purple ticket and consider gay rights to be the litmus test for any politician, nation, city, and so forth; socially bi in that I have no problem kissing and telling my male friends that I love them; and sexually … like I said: straight.

Now I want to be very clear that my reason for being a non-queer author in a queer world did not spring from any kind of deception: I am very out about being a straight guy (though a few of my gay friends don’t believe me), and when I teach classes in smut writing I tell my students ā€“ with great emphasis ā€“ never to lie about who they really are to sell a story.

How I got to where I am is actually a simple ā€“ but important ā€“ story, especially for writers.Ā  It started very simply: a friend of mine suggested writing a gay story for a special anthology.Ā  Now, I had never thought about anything like that ā€“ hell, I’d only just selling stories so I hadn’t considered much of anything ā€“ so I gave it a shot.Ā  Surprise: it was bought.Ā  This put me on the gaydar, so to speak.Ā  Soon I was not just writing gay (and lesbian) stories but editors and publishers were actively seeking me out to write for them.Ā  No dummy, I wrote what people wanted to buy … which puts me close to where I am now.

While I may, at worst, be a literary opportunist ā€“ one of my taglines is, after all, is that I’mĀ A Literary Streetwalker With A Heart of GoldĀ ā€“ I truly feel honored to be not just accepted but in many ways honored by the gay and lesbian community.Ā  I’ve been brought to the verge of tears more than once by a gay, lesbian, bi, or transgendered person telling me that anything I wrote has touched them, or when a member of the community asks me to write for them.

In this, I feel, is a lesson for any writer: I did not know ā€“ at all ā€“ that I could write queer stories until I tried.Ā  Who knows what you could be good at until you try?Ā  I tell my students all the time to try, experiment, with everything and anything ā€“ even if itā€™s something you may not even like.Ā  The worst that happens is that you find out that a certain genre is not for you, but then you could be wonderfully surprised that you not only enjoy, but are quite good at, writing for that genre.

Stretch, play, have fun, try, experiment … in writing but also in life, to get a bit philosophical.

Before I close, I want to touch on one final thing.Ā  Often I get asked is how I can write about characters that don’t share my sexual orientation.Ā  Now, writing beyond yourself is what fiction is all about: horror writers don’t really kill people, science fiction authors don’t ā€“ mostly ā€“ come from other worlds … you get the idea.Ā  Fiction is fiction, and good fiction suspends our disbelief to the point where we forget that what we are reading isn’t exactly true.

But I do have one bit of advice that’s come from being a straight guy in queer clothing: I don’t write about queer characters … I write aboutĀ people.

While I may not know what being a gay man is actually like, and I’m not equipped to know a lesbian one, I do know about hope, fear, delight, wonder, the giddy thrill of arousal, the nervousness that comes with the first few moments of sex, the lightheaded joy that comes when lust turns into love … I may not know a few (ahem) details but I know what it means to be a human being, and no matter what anyone says we are all, down deep where it matters, more alike than not.

Yes, I write about gay characters, but ā€“ following my own advice ā€“ I am also constantly trying to expand my repertoire: challenging myself as much as possible.Ā  I’ve tried my hand at romance, horror, science fiction, non-fiction, mysteries, historical … sometimes I succeed, sometimes I feel I need a lot more work … but no matter what I write, and where my life goes from here, I will always hold in the depths of my heart a love for all the gay men and women who have been so kind and supportive of me and my work.

I may not know everything about what it means to be queer ā€“ but I certainly, absolutely, totally know what love feels like.

Writing Exercise

 By Ashley Lister

 Iā€™ll keep this short. Rhyme is denigrated by
snobs. Syllable based poetry becomes complicated by the inconvenience of
diphthongs and triphthongs (as well as the vagaries of pronunciation). And so,
Iā€™ve gone for something short and sweet with my contribution to this weekā€™s
excursion into poetic forms. Iā€™ve elected to tackle the septolet.

Long Days

Days
that stretch

for

endless,
infinite hours

until
we are

together

alone
and naked.

The
septolet has fourteen words. It is broken between two stanzas that make up the
fourteen words. Each stanza can have seven words but that is not an essential requirement.
The division can take place where the poet decides.

Unclothed

Wearing
only

a
smile

you
have enchanted me

and
I offer

you
my heart.

Both
stanzas of the septolet deal with the same thought. Ultimately they create a
picture. Please take a shot at contributing a septolet to the
comments box below.

Erotic Lure Newsletter: February 2013

From the Erotica Readers & Writers Association
By Lisabet Sarai
_______

Dear Carnal Collaborators with Cupid,

We’re back from our winter hiatus (hope you had some warm, cuddly company during those long January nights!) and ready to fire you up for the annual festival of love. I’m referring, of course, to Valentine’s Day. You’ll find ample erotic inspiration in the February edition of the Erotica Readers & Writers Association, from ardent verse to velvet restraints. Bring your lover(s) and browse together!

This month’s Erotica Gallery reminds me, once again, that there’s no place on the web like ERWA. If you’re bored with reading the same tired old sexual scenarios, our contributors will rekindle your excitement. This month’s crop of stories includes warring Biblical tribes, woolly role playing, weird fun with electricity, sex in space, and a mysterious, arousing message from the past. We also have ten amazing flashers ranging from sensually evocative to utterly filthy, and some of the most gorgeous erotic poetry I’ve ever read.

Hands (and other body parts) down – the best free erotica on the ‘Net:
erotica-readers.local/story-gallery

In addition, we’ve updated the ERWA Treasure Chest with the best of galleries from 2012, conveniently categorized so you can easily find exactly what suits your mood at the moment.

Dig for buried pleasure:
erotica-readers.local/treasure-chest

Once you’ve read everything the Gallery has to offer, though, what then?  Our Books for Sensual Readers section will satisfy even the most intense literary lust. Check out the 2013 editions of the always exceptional BEST WOMEN’S EROTICA, edited by Violet Blue, or BEST EROTICA ROMANCE, edited by Kristina Wright. Circlet Press has an eclectic new anthology entitled LIKE A COMING WAVE: OCEANIC EROTICA, edited by Andrea Trask. Or if you want to feel virtuous as well as horny, pick up a copy of my charitable vampire erotica anthology, COMING TOGETHER: IN VEIN, which supports Doctors Without Borders and features many authors familiar to ERWA denizens. Fans of F/F fiction should snap up Radclyffe’s BEST LESBIAN ROMANCE 2013. And I definitely want a copy of Jerry Wheeler’s anthology TRICKS OF THE TRADE: MAGICAL GAY EROTICA. Who wouldn’t, with that incredible cover?

We’ve got dozens of great novels, too. Alan Daniels’ SPANK: THE IMPROBABLE ADVENTURES OF GEORGE ALOYSIUS BROWN sounds like a ribald romp reminiscent of classic Victoria smut. The resuscitated Black Lace has a new edition of Portia Da Costa’s wonderful librarian fantasy IN TOO DEEP. RIDING THE ETHER, the second volume in K.D. Grace’s Lakeland Heatwave Trilogy, is finally out. Lynne Connolly offers up rock music and romance Louisiana style in BORN ON THE BAYOU.

All these titles, and many more, can be yours before you can say “Cupid’s Cock”. Just follow our convenient links to Amazon or Barnes & Noble, and shop your heart out! Every red cent you spend after that point – even for the chocolates and the flowers – helps support ERWA.

Indulge your passion for the written word:
erotica-readers.local/books

Looking forward to the night of February 14th? Why not pick out a toy or two to enhance the experience? As usual, our monthly Sex Toy Scuttlebutt column offer a quick and dirty (hmm) summary of the latest and greatest erotic implements, including direct buy links. Personally, I want a Matryoshka Vibe. (Are you listening, lover?) This month we also have a fun article on the history of sex toys by the adult merchandise pioneers at Adam & Eve. Phil Harvey, the founder of Adam & Eve, fought the U.S. government for your right to purchase sex toys. (You can read about this struggle in The Government Vs. Erotica: The Siege of Adam & Eve. Take advantage of his victory!

She who comes with the most toys wins:
erotica-readers.local/sex-toy-playground

Next, let’s slide on over to the Adult Movies section, where I found lots of arousing new titles. My first pick is the bisexual drama “Paint”, about an ambitious young painter who falls for her (female) mentor while being wooed by a sleazy gallery owner. (The tag line really grabbed me: “It’s not just complicated. It’s abstract.”) “The Last Shag” deals with sex before the apocalypse. What would you do if the world were about to end tomorrow? In the totally trangressive category, I’m drawn to “Mother Superior”, directed by Nica Noelle. A whole convent of lovely nuns, struggling with their lesbian urges, ruled over by a strict superior with her own dark desires. Very kinky cover! And the Classic Porn section features “7 Into Snowy”, an erotic take on Snow White directed by the immortal Radley Metzger. If you’ve never seen any of Metzger’s films – well, you should remedy that as soon as possible!

Candlelight dinner, wine and a sexy flick – the perfect Valentine’s Day!
erotica-readers.local/adult-movies

Inside the Erotic Mind this month, we have a lively three pages of discussion on the topic of circumcised versus uncircumcised penises. You’ll find a wide range of opinions on both sides of the issue. Then there’s the lady who wrote: “Personally, I prefer both.” Got to love her! You can join the conversation; just click the “Participate” link.

Dare to explore inside the erotic mind:
erotica-readers.local/inside-the-erotic-mind

Our featured Web Gem this month is the award-winning adult retail shop, Good Vibrations, where adults shop for adult pleasures. Whether you’re looking for your first sex toy or your twentieth, something vanilla or kinky, for her, for him, or for the two of you, Good Vibrations can help. Good Vibrations’ sex-positive attitude is apparent in their upbeat website and excellent customer service. Use the following link, along with discount code ERWA13 (at check out) for a 10% discount. www.goodvibes.com/?kbid=22518

Just a darn minute, you may be thinking (especially if you’re one of our subscribers who writes erotica). What about the Author Resources pages?

To give you more variety and content, and to enhance interactivity, we’ve shifted most of our writing-related articles to the ERWA blog. Every month, more than a dozen experienced authors contribute posts on the art, craft and business of writing, with a focus on erotica. Ashley Lister offers exercises to limber up your pen and your brain. Kathleen Bradean and Donna George Storey discuss the trials of writing novels. M. Christian looks at the publishing world from the perspective of seventeen years experience. Remittance Girl deconstructs societal attitudes about sex and fiction. I post about whatever happens to be bugging me that particular month… You’ll find the full slate of contributors in the right hand side bar. In February, C. Sanchez-Garcia joins the blog with craft-oriented articles, and Lucy Felthouse shifts from quarterly to monthly contributions. We also post all new Calls for Submissions on the blog as they arrive.

Share in the writing experience:
erotica-readers.blogspot.com

You can still find archives of previous columns on the main ERWA website – a wealth of information and inspiration – as well as our up-to-date listings of submissions calls and publishers’ guidelines. New additions this month include the Mammoth Book of Best New Erotica 12, Coming Together: Girl on Girl (edited by Leigh Ellwood), updated submission guides from Ellora’s Cave, and a contest from Lyrical Press where the prize is a contract with a $100 advance.

Sell off your darlings:
erotica-readers.local/erotica-authors-resources

I think I’ll stop here. February’s so short, I want to make sure you have plenty of time to experience all this stuff I’ve been raving about. As for me, I’m on my way back to the Playground with an assignment from my master. I’m supposed to pick out the butt plug he’s going to make me wear to the Valentine’s Ball. Guess it should be scarlet, to match my corset…

Concupiscently yours,
Lisabet Sarai

NASTY BUSINESS  – BDSM erotica from Lisabet Sarai
Get your copy today! www.amazon.com
Visit Lisabet Sarai’s Fantasy Factory
Check out Lisabet’s blog
Join Lisabet’s List

Write, learn, and play on ERWA. Details at:
erotica-readers.local/erwa-email-discussion-list

Images by K D Grace

http://kdgrace.co.uk

Iā€™m always a bit behind in the technology curve and
even more so in the social media curve. Iā€™m a toe-dipper in the techno-pool of
social and promotional possibilities always testing the water to make sure itā€™s
not too cold and not too deep. I like to make sure itā€™s navigable with my
marginal skills before I hop on in. Thatā€™s a very long-winded way of saying
that I finally discovered Pinterest over
the Christmas holidays, and I am SO addicted!

The thing is I never thought I would be. I mean my
job is to create pictures with words, right? It all happens inside my head,
right? Thatā€™s what having a great imagination is all about, right? And yet, Iā€™m
like a kid in a candy store when it comes to the images on Pinterest. At first,
I found that fact a little bit disturbing, a little bit like watching too much
reality TV. Looking at lovely, brightly-coloured, preeeetty pictures for hours
is ā€“ you know ā€“ a guilty secret that I really wasnā€™t sure I wanted to admit in
public.

Oh, it all started innocently enough. It was just
one more way to promote my novels. I put the cover images of my novels up on
individual boards and added other related images that were relevant to the
stories or the characters, and it was cool. But then I started a ā€˜fun stuffā€™
board, and a ā€˜sexy stuffā€™ board, and a board for myths and inspiration, and a
board for my favourite places and favourite books, and a board for walking, and
a board for garden pornā€¦! You get the picture ā€¦ er the image.

Itā€™s no secret that Iā€™m pretty neurotic. Iā€™m forever
navel-gazing and trying to analyse just what it is that makes me do some of the
strange things I do — like hurrying to finish my work so I can reward myself
by looking at pretty pictures. That being the case, take my analysis for what
itā€™s worth ā€“ an effort for me to convince everyone, but mostly myself, that
looking at pretty pictures is a good thing, and that I really am okay. Honest!

The powerful parts of story, the parts that I
remember most vividly are the parts in which the image is so clear in my mind that
if I saw it on Pinterest, if I saw it in a glossy magazine, or if it were
shared on Facebook or on telly, Iā€™d recognise it in a heartbeat because Iā€™d see
it with way more than just my eyes. An
image is a representation of the external form of a person or thing in
sculpture, painting, etc
. An image is the reflection in the mirror, the
imitation of a thing. And the imagination
is the place where those wonderful word
images are created.

At the end of the navel-gaze, my fascination with
Pinterest and pretty pictures isnā€™t really all that hard to understand. I see
stories in pictures. By that, I mean what I read or what I write, I see
visually in my head. Though I donā€™t see the characters in my stories as looking
like actors or famous people, I see images that reflect their personalities,
their actions and reactions to the plot unfolding around them, to the world
they live in, to their response and reaction to each other. Words are the
building blocks for images in story, for pretty pictures and scary pictures and
sad pictures and happy pictures. Words are the finesse for images. Words take
images to the next level by twisting and sculpting and recreating, by breathing
life into those images and bringing them screaming and kicking from the world
of the imagination out onto the written page. Thereā€™s a reason why the book is
always better than the film. Thereā€™s a reason why the best images only exist
inside my head — as well as the most moving images and the most terrifying
images.

Two years ago in August, my husband and I walked the
Wainwright Coast to Coast path across England. We made the trip with two
cameras and two BlackBerrys. Some days we took hundreds of images. Other days
we took only a few because it was pouring rain and we just wanted to get
somewhere warm and dry. I blogged that fourteen-day journey across Cumbria and
North Yorkshire, from St. Beeā€™s Head to Robin Hoodā€™s Bay, so I wanted as many
images as we could get for my posts. Even now, two years later, I can look at
those images, and Iā€™m there! Iā€™m there in the Lake District, on the top of
Kidsty Pike in the wind and the mist, Iā€™m there walking through the old mining
ruins on the high level route between Keld and Reeth, Iā€™m there on the North
York Moors looking out over a sea of blooming heather.

Those photos along with thousands of images from
hundreds of walks in the Lake District were revisited, studied and reimagined
in my mind as I wrote the Lakeland Heatwave
Trilogy.
Now, so many of those images have stories beyond the stories, so
many of those images take me places I could never go in the real world, but
only in the world of my characters and their stories. Every image has a thousand
stories, stories that I havenā€™t written yet, stories that I havenā€™t even
imagined yet, stories that I wonā€™t live long enough to write. So itā€™s not really
surprising that my imagination is so easily captured by pretty pictures.

The power of image in a story is the power to take
me there and make me want to stay for the whole thing, and not want to leave
when itā€™s over. The power of image in a story is the power to take me there, then
to make me wish I could leave, the
power that wonā€™t allow me to leave, even after the storyā€™s over. Thatā€™s a lot
of power.

I know a lot of writers use an image board, of some
sort, to help them clarify in their heads elements of their story and their
characters. Iā€™ve never done that. The Pinterest boards of my work are all after
the fact. But then perhaps I do something similar in my mind that Iā€™d not
really thought about until my Pinterest addiction reared its pretty head.
Perhaps every story I write is a board of images, images brought more and more
sharply into focus, as I write and rewrite, until they do what I need them to
do, until they make the reader look hard and feel deeply. Well, thatā€™s what Iā€™d
like to think, anyway. Maybe itā€™s more of a goal really, to make what I write
clear and sharply focused and impossible for my readers to look away from
without being moved in some way without being changed in some way. 

Find me on Pinterest here: http://pinterest.com/kdgraceauthor/

You Do Judge A Book By Its Cover

Your book cover makes a huge impression – so huge it could
affect your sales. An ugly cover could kill your sales because the idea is that
if you don’t care enough about your book to cough up the cash for a spiffy
cover, what does that say about the content of your book? Ugly covers are
unprofessional. They make you look like a noob.

That said, there are some covers so bad they defy
imagination. What were these people thinking? I’m bringing this up because I
had a truly fugly cover for my short sweet romance “The Storm”. The
publisher closed shop before the story was published so I was saved the
embarrassment of seeing this cover in public. Here is it, in all its hideous glory:

Isn’t that simply dreadful? The faces look like they were tacked on, and the edges have
not been smoothed. You can’t even see the ship. At least the title and my name
are clearly visible, although they are in a nauseating puke green. I guess that’s to symbolize seasickness. The cover is also very dark – hard to see. You can’t even
tell what the story is about judging by this terrible cover. It’s a muddy,
unclear mess. My story is a bittersweet romantic comedy with pirates. You’d never know from the cover.

Your cover is your entry into your potential reader’s mind.
It had better stick, and in a good way. The images should be crisp, clean, and
light. Not muddy. Print should be clear enough to read in a thumbnail. If you
can’t see your cover well when it’s in thumbnail you need a new cover. Remember that sites like Amazon display your covers in thumbnail format so it’s important your cover be legible and attractive when small.

Here are some examples of bad covers:

There are more colors in this cover than a bag of Jelly
Bellies. Plus why does the woman look like a Real Doll? She looks plastic –
literally. I wonder if she has a vibrating cachet?

Where is her right arm? Why does she look like she’s
grabbing him by the ‘nads or giving his ass a squeeze? Also, it looks like he’s
going to wrap the lasso around her neck. Not very sexy unless you’re into
auto-erotic asphyxiation.

There is so much wrong with this cover. Dull, muddy colors.
Images of people that look tacked on without adequate blending or shading. Why
aren’t there any shadows below them? He looks like he’s floating in mid-air.
And why is her butt blacked out?

The following covers made me laugh so hard I spewed iced tea all over my monitor. Watch your titles for
double-entendres. No further comment necessary.

Here is my favorite strange and unfortunate book cover. Wow! Imagine the content! Are these lesbians on horseback or lesbian horses?

Oh, about that terrible cover for my short story “The
Storm”? I found an artist who painted a watercolor for me for that short
story, which is now available for free on my web site. This is one of my
favorite covers. It’s beautiful. You may read the story on my web site at this link.

About Elizabeth Black

Elizabeth Black
writes erotica, erotic romance, speculative fiction, fantasy, and horror. She
also enjoys writing erotic retellings of classic fairy tales. Born and bred in
Baltimore, she grew up under the influence of Edgar Allan Poe. Her erotic
fiction has been published by Xcite Books (U. K.), Circlet Press, Ravenous
Romance, Scarlet Magazine (U. K.), and other publishers. Her horror fiction has
appeared in “Kizuna: Fiction For Japan”, “Stupefying
Stories”, and “Mirages: Tales From Authors Of The Macabre”. An
accomplished essayist, she was the sex columnist for the pop culture e-zine
nuts4chic (also U. K.) until it folded in 2008. Her articles about sex,
erotica, and relationships have appeared in Good Vibrations Magazine, Alternet,
CarnalNation, the Ms. Magazine Blog, Sexis Magazine, On The Issues, Sexy Mama
Magazine, and Circlet blog. She also writes sex toys reviews for several sex
toys companies.

In addition to
writing, she has also worked as a gaffer (lighting), scenic artist, and make-up
artist (including prosthetics) for movies, television, stage, and concerts. She
worked as a gaffer for “Die Hard With A Vengeance” and “12
Monkeys”. She did make-up, including prosthetics, for “Homicide: Life
On The Street”. She is especially proud of the gunshot wound to the head
she had created with makeup for that particular episode. She also worked as a
prosthetic makeup artist specializing in cyanotic blue, bruises, and buckets of
blood for a test of Maryland’s fire departments at the Baltimore/Washington
International Airport plane crash simulation test. Yes, her jobs are fun.
 šŸ˜‰

She lives in
Lovecraft country on the Massachusetts coast with her husband, son, and four
cats. The ocean calls her every day, and she always listens. She has yet to run
into Cthulhu.

Visit her web
site at http://elizabethablack.blogspot.com/

Her Facebook
page is https://www.facebook.com/elizabethablack

Follow her at
Twitter: http://twitter.com/ElizabethABlack

Writing This Novel Part III

by Kathleen Bradean

However you write is the right way
to do it. Forget The Rules. If you plot out everything ahead of time, good for
you. If you sit down and write with no idea where the story is going, thatā€™s
great too. Iā€™m telling you this because what follows is my weird method and Iā€™d
hate for you to think itā€™s The Right Way or The Only Way to go about it. 

Iā€™m about thirty thousand words
into The Night Creature. It will
probably be around sixty thousand words when complete, so thatā€™s theoretically
half way through. Now Iā€™m in what writer Jim Grimsley so accurately described
as ā€˜the murk in the middle of the novel.ā€™ If youā€™re into the journey through
the woods metaphor, this is the moment when you lose sight of the forest for
the trees. The ending seems unreachable. Maybe by now the story bores you. You
fell out of love with it once you got to know it better. Hey, it happens. Iā€™m
wondering myself if Iā€™m on the right track, if Iā€™ll be able to tell the story I
set out to, and if itā€™s worth telling even if I can. Yep, Iā€™m stuck in the murk.

Several options here. 1)
procrastinate 2) blunder around until I discover the right path to the end, or
3) give up.

Many writers have procrastination
honed to a fine art. Deadline looming? Wash the dishes and vacuum the spider
webs off the ceiling. Have a cookie. Then decide you need tea with that. Or
scotch. Then go to FaceBook and look at cat memes.  Stuck and floundering? Throw yourself into
research. The internet makes it so easy. You donā€™t have to head to the library
with focused questions and a limited amount of time and patience. Oh no. You
can look up the price of a Hermes scarf in British pounds. Google Maps with
street view is a fantastic tool. I found out there are no cafƩs on the same
street as the Hermes store in Paris. I also know there are five Hermes
boutiques in Paris, but I showed some restraint and only looked at one. Eventually, I
had to get quite stern with myself and stop playing around with the wealth of
information out there. As Mary Poppins says, ā€œEnough is as good as a feast.ā€  

Writing articles about writing a
novel is a great procrastination technique, by the way. But now people are tracking
my progress, so I feel a little pressure to stop screwing around and get it
done.

Too much procrastinating is a bad
habit, but it can be useful. It gives me time to step back from the story for a
while and mull over the story arc and insights into who the characters have
become as the story unfolds. The order of events tightens into focus. Itā€™s a
chance to play around with ideas before I commit them to words, or so I tell
myself. The problem is that Iā€™m stuck and until I can move forward, fooling
around with research seems as useful as staring at that damned blinking cursor.
What comes next? I have no idea! Leave me alone, you nagging black line of
doom!

Yeah, yelling the cursor isnā€™t
productive. 

One trick to avoid being stuck:
When you finish a writing session, get one or two sentences of the next scene
down before you stop. That way youā€™re primed to move on when you open the file
the next time. Or stop just short of the natural end of the scene. If you have
an easy writing prompt to start with, youā€™re more likely to type the next
sentence.

But what do you do if that doesnā€™t
work? This is where the ā€˜this works for me but I donā€™t recommend itā€™ part comes
in. The blundering about method. I go over what Iā€™ve already written and
tighten it up. Youā€™re not supposed to start editing until the first draft is
complete. The reason for that ā€˜ruleā€™ is that some writers futz around with
their first chapters forever and never move on. The reason I break the rule is
that rules are really only guidelines, and guidelines are code for ā€˜this works
for many people.ā€™ Thatā€™s no guarantee it will work for you and Iā€™ve found it
doesnā€™t for me. That being said, the first novel you write, your major goal
should be to finish it. Millions of people begin novels. Few finish them.
Finish yours. Revel in the accomplishment. Slog through to the end no matter
what. Then go back and edit. (says the woman who admits she doesnā€™t do it that
way)

 I try to write a linear, meaning that I donā€™t
tend to write scenes out of order. Every sentence in your story should have
forward momentum toward the end. Jumping ahead or behind disturbs the forward flow
of the narrative. (That can be fixed in the editing process) But just because
thatā€™s what I prefer to do doesnā€™t mean itā€™s what I really do. A few days ago I
wrote a wonderfully evocative scene but realized later that it occurred too
early in the emotional arc of the story. Normally, Iā€™d just delete it and write
it again later.

Youā€™re probably screaming right
now. I know, I know. Youā€™re supposed to save all your precious snippets and
tuck them away for later. This is where my view of writing may differ dramatically
from yours. I donā€™t think of anything Iā€™ve written as a rare gem to be set in a
tiara to make it sparkle. Iā€™m not saying that you do, or thatā€™s itā€™s wrong to
feel that way. It simply isnā€™t my approach to my writing. While I write
literary erotica, pretty prose isnā€™t my aim. So itā€™s rare that I feel anything
Iā€™ve written is too precious to delete. I care very much about the emotions
evoked in my scenes though, so often the only thing I ā€˜saveā€™ is an impression
of the emotional impact.

However, this time I really liked
the way the scene turned out. Plus it took me a long time to write. So I cut
and pasted it to the end of my MS (manuscript). Itā€™s lurking out there, waiting
for me. Once I reach the right place in the story to incorporate it, I may have
to entirely rewrite it to make it fit into the flow of the story. Or cut it if
it never fits. Iā€™m sort of brutal that way.

I knew that scene didnā€™t come next,
but what did? Cut to me pacing in the backyard and thinking quite a bit about
the story. For days.

Truly stuck at this point, this is
when I daydream about being one of those writers who creates an outline before
they begin writing. How lovely it would be to see that my next scene is ____.
Itā€™s written in stone. Itā€™s meant to be. Yeah. No. The problem with outlines is
that I discover the story while Iā€™m writing it. An outline I wrote in advance
would be worthless after the first major deviation from it, so why bother? Or
worse, Iā€™d try to force the story back to the outline and justā€¦ *full body
shudder* Not going to happen.

Rather than give up on the novel
now that Iā€™m mired down in indecision, this is time to dig into my bag of
writerā€™s tricks to get moving again. The first thing I did was make myself stay
away from FaceBook and all other temptations. Then I deliberately wrote a scene
I knew was wrong. I used a POV (point of view) character who had no business
narrating any part of the story. I explored how she saw the major characters,
what changes she noticed in them, and let her ramble on about things that
mattered only to her. When Iā€™m not sure what to do next, doing the most wrong
thing helps me focus on the right thing. Sure, I wrote a thousand words that I
deleted the next time I sat down to write, but I was writing, which beats
glaring at the blinking cursor.

When even that trick failed, I
broke another one of my rules. I wrote part of the closing scene of the story.
Iā€™ll probably have to rewrite it entirely, but it reminded me where I was
headed, what was at stake for the characters, and all the events that must
happen before they get to that moment. That got me moving forward again, but I
also realized something that was wrong way at the beginning of the novel. When
you have an option, write new stuff and move forward. Even though itā€™s killing
me to leave the error, Iā€™m working toward the end. I can fix the errors in the
editing process. I keep telling myself that. I will avoid temptation!

Is it ever the right decision to
give up? I hate to say yes, but the answer is yes. I know some writers who
start off strong and know the ending but simply canā€™t write the middle of the
novel. Part of it may be a loss of faith. Sometimes itā€™s something outside the
book such as fear of failure, fear of success, or one of the other evil mind
games we play on ourselves.

What if you canā€™t write more
because the story reached a point where it bores you? News flash ā€“ if it bores
he writer it will bore the reader, so save us all the grief and figure out how
to make it interesting. Do you just want to get to the exciting stuff? Then
deal with the dull stuff in a sentence or two and get on to the fun part.

But what if that doesnā€™t work? If you
have a bad habit of quitting at this point, force yourself to slog through it.
Forcing yourself to finish might not help you produce a publishable novel but
youā€™ll have broken your streak of unfinished work. Then move on to another
novel and force yourself to finish it. However, if it isnā€™t a habit and you
just canā€™t write any more on this story and more urgent ones are hammering at
your brain trying to get out, then your best option might be to set this one
aside for a while, maybe forever. Give up. Making yourself miserable isnā€™t
worth it. Do you have a contract for the novel? No? Then let it go. Yes? Oh
man. Youā€™re in a spot, arenā€™t you? Put on your professional writer hat (or panties)
and try anything, everything, to get it done.

Whatever you do, no matter how uninspired
you feel, force yourself to write. Thatā€™s my best advice to escape the murk in
the middle.

Let me know if you have tricks that
help you write when youā€™re not feeling it. Iā€™m always interested in what other
writers do.

Next time, I expect to have
finished my novel. Iā€™ll tell you how I brought it on home.

Unspoken

By Lisabet Sarai


We were together in my living room, kissing ā€“ pretty hot  and heavy. After a while, I thought it was okay to move to the next stage, so I began caressing her breasts. ā€œNo ā€“ don’t…ā€ she moaned into my mouth. So of course, I removed my hands. I was disappointed, but I figured I’d read her wrong.

She broke the kiss, sat back on the couch and gave me a look I really couldn’t interpret. ā€œWhy’d you stop?ā€

Now I was confused. ā€œWell ā€“ you told me to. My mom brought me up with the rule that ‘no means no’.ā€

ā€œI had to say no,ā€ she replied. ā€œI didn’t want you to think I was a slut. But I really wanted you to keep going.ā€

***

A male friend of mine recently told me the story above. We both shook our heads at the how easily authentic sexual communication can be derailed by societal norms, mismatched expectations, and personal secrets that aren’t shared. Of course, when you’re with a lover, much of the communication is non-verbal, but when the signals are mixed, how do you know what to believe?

This conversation started me thinking about safewords. A safeword may be the only unambiguous and absolute form of sexual communication in existence. That’s its sole purpose ā€“ to convey the message ā€œStopā€ (and that’s why the actual word chosen doesn’t matter). Once a safeword has been established, the dominant is free to ignore protests and refusals by the sub ā€“ to assume that in fact the sub doesn’t ā€œreallyā€ mean no, regardless of what she’s saying at any particular moment. 

In both the real world and in erotic fiction, though, submissives are reluctant to invoke that escape clause. Part of the resistance is a sense that by using the safeword, the bottom will somehow disappoint the top. In fact, a responsible top needs to trust the sub will safeword if necessary ā€“ that’s part of the contract involved in the power exchange. A sub may recognize this intellectually, but feelings are a different matter. Using the safeword makes a bottom feel ashamed and inadequate, as if she doesn’t have enough stamina or endurance to take whatever the top can dish out. Subs crave perfection ā€“ safewording makes it all too obvious that their devotion is flawed.

(Note: this may of course not be true of all submissives. I’m speaking at least partly from personal experience here. Also, although I use the female pronoun for submissives, that’s purely for linguistic convenience.)

I wonder, though, whether there’s another dynamic involved. Specifically, I wonder if ambiguity or uncertainty, the awareness that there are things left unspoken by both you and your partner(s), actually contributes to eroticism. Certainly, knowing exactly what your lover is thinking and what he or she is about to do strips a scene of some of its tension. When a lover asks me, ā€œWhat do you want?ā€ I’m reluctant to reply, not due to embarrassment (mostly) but because I want to be surprised. I don’t want to script my own sexual encounters. I’d rather be spontaneous, and have my lover do the same.

Then there’s the question of taboos and transgression. You want to violate the rules, to push the limits, to go further than you’ve gone before. At the same time, you’re scared and uncomfortable. You’re really not sure what you want, in fact. How can one simultaneously crave and fear being flogged? And yet some of us do, and that hovering on the cusp between desire and denial adds intensity to the experience.

I’ve been couching this theoretical proposition mostly in terms of BDSM, but it could well apply to non-kinky relationships as well. The sense of mystery enhances the thrill, especially when you’re with someone you don’t know very well ā€“ in a situation where sexual communication is likely to be the most fraught with uncertainty. If you knew everything running through your partner’s mind, your lust might well turn to disinterest or even disgust. Better to leave some things to the imagination ā€“ even if you risk misunderstandings.

In writing erotic scenes, I’ve learned to let each participant keep some secrets. I believe this adds depth and authenticity. At the height of passion, we rarely speak of our past  lovers ā€“ but they’re often present in our minds. Worried about rejection, we don’t share our deepest fears or our most fervent desires, even with long-established partners. And although I’ve always believed that open sexual communication is prima facie a Good Thing, perhaps that conclusion should be tempered by circumstance.

On the other hand, two erotic scenarios that most strongly push my personal buttons involve complete openness. The first is the notion of telepathic connection during sex. This is a familiar trope in romantic erotica, particularly in the paranormal vein, but that doesn’t necessarily rob it of its effectiveness.  There have been a few times in my life where I truly believed I was reading my lover’s mind, and vice versa. Despite the qualms I voiced a few paragraphs earlier, those were powerful, even life changing, erotic experiences. I’ve used the device in some of my own stories and it never fails to excite and move me.

The second scenario involves a D/s relationship in which the submissive is ā€œforcedā€ to confess her kinky desires. The master or mistress requires full disclosure ā€“ no matter how filthy the content of her fantasies. To refuse to speak would constitute disobedience. And so, despite shame and embarrassment, the sub admits her kinks. She is rewarded by the dominant’s acceptance and approval, in contrast to the condemnation that would be the consequence in the vanilla world.

I find this type of interaction incredibly arousing ā€“ both in fiction and reality. The Dom and sub are partners in exploring the depths of depravity. By revealing her secret needs, no matter how warped, the sub demonstrates her level of trust. Like using a safeword, this kind of revelation takes courage. A serious and skilled top will reward the bottom for being open ā€“ perhaps by bringing some of those fantasies to life.

Still,  there may be thoughts the sub doesn’t dare voice, even to the most accepting and amenable of Doms. Those (possibly very extreme) fantasies remain unspoken ā€“ but will the dominant somehow manage to intuit and act on them? (Perhaps using the mind-reading capabilities for which masters are known?) Don’t we all hold some things back, even from those with whom we are most intimate?

Sorry to ramble. I’m curious to know what those of you who haven’t given up on this post yet think. Is total openness desirable in the erotic realm? Or do the secrets
we keep add to the complexity and
richness of sexual experience?

Hot Chilli Erotica

Hot Chilli Erotica

Categories

Babysitting the Baumgartners - The Movie
From Adam & Eve - Based on the Book by New York Times Bestselling Authors Selena Kitt

Categories

Archives

Pin It on Pinterest